Monday, August 6, 2012

Quickly Now

The movers will be here in less than 24 hours.

I have a newborn baby blissfully pressed to my chest by a long swath of fabric.

My first-born is spending way too much time with the iPad. In 2 days she will be off to Florida with her grandparents and I won't see her for over a week. Crushing.

We are cramming boxes full of stuff that, until now, I deemed we couldn't do without. With small children, routine is everything.

As I move through this space, the one that has welcomed both of our children and held our lives for the past 5 years, I unexpectedly find myself treading water  while memory after memory is rediscovered just as misplaced items are rediscovered with a victorious, "here it is!" Today there have been many moments when tears well and my breath leaves me. I bite my lip and my throat burns to not cry.

I can't believe this is finally happening. Medical school, internship, residency and fellowship are over. He's done. He's part of a faculty now rather than being at the mercy of a faculty. At last we are allowed to live and to plan as if no deadline exists because for once, no deadline exists. On the precipice of 40 years old I feel like I can finally live as an adult and not a student, a mini personal revolution of sorts.

Even as the sentimental moments roll in and out like a steady tide, I am stricken by two things:

I am damn happy!
And so thankful...for everything.

7 Lovies:

Your Doctor's Wife said...

Oh my Gosh!!!! Congratulations!!!!
That is very exciting. All of it!

Thanks for linking up and helping spread the word about Medical Monday BlogHop!

Looking forward to reading more. :)

From A Doctors Wife said...

I can see myself writing this post in about 11 months! I am so glad you linked up today:-) Congratulations on everything: new baby, new job, new move. So many new and exciting things ahead. I can't wait to read all about them. You have a new follower - ME!

Again, congratulations!!!!!!

Solitary Diner said...

Just found you through the blog hop. Congratulations on finally reaching that settled phase. I'm three years away from in myself (one last year of residency and two of fellowship), and I can't wait.

AudreyN said...

I am so excited for this new chapter of your lives! I hope the move goes smoothly. oh and can I get a vacation to Florida with grandma and grandpa? said...

Congratulations! Very excited for you. We have been through all that and settled and it feels so good:) Found you on MMBH and look forward to your blog updates about the move!

Amber TheUDW said...

Congratulations! What a wonderful feeling that must be. We're not quite there yet - next June (I think i can, I think I can...)

AudreyN said...

I know you are busy moving and everything, but when things get settled I have given you an award